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deannathefag:

Like seriously, everyone is so annoying -.-

I hide a lot with my smiles. I fake them a lot. I’m known to be a very loving, funny, optimistic, happy boy all the time, but in my head, I notice that I’m completely the opposite. I don’t like half my friends, I get annoyed so easily, and I hate school. I easily can tease people with a smile that can’t thought to be purposed. It’s honestly bad for me, yeah.. but it’s just hard. Knowing that during the day, I just want to punch anything and everything that I see.

I guess I’m just weird.

I don’t know how I smile every day, with a bundle of pain lingering inside me.

“Shutup, you’re so fucking annoying.”

“Dude, you’re like a reject Asian.”

“How do you fail Algebra? You’re retarded.”

“You’re so fucking dumb, hahaha.”

“You’re so retarded, just stop. Lol.”

“Can you shutup for once?”

“How many rolls do you have there? 5? 6?”

“You’re a disgrace to all asians in the world.”

Honestly, for all I’m worth.. I just want one day where people will treat me right for once.

Everybody’s so fucking used to making fun of me, even I’m used to it because they know I’ll just smile, laugh or just joke about it.

They see smiles in my face.

I hold nothing but sadness in my body, hurting little by little, by every insult they throw at me. I have dreams of them going too far and suiciding. I have nowhere to go, nothing to do - because they see me as a stupid asian kid, a reject filipino, a dumbass who fails Alg. I can’t take it anymore.. You got what you fucking wanted guys, a dumbass, an idiot, a fatass, a gaylord, a faggot, a loser, everything that’s been said to me - you have me. I surrender..

“Just like that. From a hundred miles an hour to asleep in a nanosecond. I wanted so badly to lie down next to her on the couch, to wrap my arms around her and sleep. Not fuck, like in those movies. Not even sex. Just sleep together, in the most innocent sense of phrase. But I lack courage and she had a boyfriend and I was gawky and she was gorgeous and I was helplessly boring and she was endlessly fascinating. So I walked back into my room and collapsed on the bottom bunk, thinking that if people are rain, I was drizzle, and she was hurricane.”

When you can look past someones looks and know them for who they really are and really like them for what they really are, you must be a really good person. Most people think if you’re ugly or unattractive to them you will be looked down on, but if you really can look past their looks you can find a beautiful personality that shines from the rest. I don’t think people understand how much they judge others each day. I admit I’ve judged someone but I can’t help it, it’s just my immeadiate instinct. Looks are everything to everyone. So I’d like to say to anyone who’s cutting theirself, having suicidal thoughts, or is selfconcious about your appearance keep your head up and stay beautiful<3.

Yeah, but following up on another story. I was going to ask out this girl to winterball, but she ended up rejecting me to go to winterball with a lesbian.

Awkward.